this 4 months I've experienced through a "real" working life and i have learnt many things. I have also come to notice 2 mysterious ways how "life" works.


1. When you just got a job, you are desperately struggling everyday to learn the ropes of the new profession. everyday is a new challenge. The last few days of my work, this thought suddenly strucked me when i was commuting back home on the mrt: why is that only when my contract is about to end soon when i finally learn everything that is required, when i finally became more close to my collegaues, when THOSE DELICIOUS FOOD STALLS AND DESSERT STALLS SUDDENLY POPPED OUT OF NOWHERE!! (emphasis on the caps).

It's the same like playing a RPG game, finally when you get to enjoy fighting the last boss of the game. With the adrenaline rush, the anticipation, you mop the boss with all your special attacks and spells that you aqquired through all the grinding. and the boss died in less than 10 hits.

2. I went for orientation briefing last last sat, alone. sad to say that almost everyone that i know studies science in secondary school and junior college. but once in university, everyone starts walking different paths, some aqquired new interests, some turned to more practical majors that will help them survive the next stage of life - finding a job. almost no one i know of is doing science - biology right now. and so yes, i went to the camp briefing myself, alone. it was quite an experience even though it was only 20 minutes. We were sitting in a lecture theatre listening to the briefing. As i turn around my head and glance through all the faces, i realise there are no familiar faces AT ALL.

then another thought struck me, out of the 50+ people that were sitting in the lecture threatre with me, there is a chance, a chance that a few of them might just become my good friends that will be chiong-ing with me through the tutorials and exams for the next 4 years. the ones that i will have to borrow their maths tutorials to copy from (oops, lol). the feeling is overwhelming.

the way life works still amazes me, despite how many times i've been through this before. it's like walking down orchard road and walking pass someone. u might have pass by this person 10, 30, or even 100 hundred times during ypur routine and not take notice, remember the person. but that person might just be your friend to be in your next stage of your life. is'nt it amazing?

Life plays and messes around with you. it's strange, despite having been through this a million times already, i still find it mysterious and fresh. i can't wait to go to camp, i can't wait to make new friends, i can't wait to go back to school, i can't wait to study!

for those who say that studying is boring, useless. you will find yourself rebuking your own statement 5 years down the road, when you are working in a corporate, rushing assigments and deadlines like there's no tommorrow. you will say "STUDYING IS THE BEST TIME OF MY LIFE" or "I LOVE STUDYING" or something like that.

the life curve peaks again! welcome back, halycon days =)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

i couldn't stand it any longer and decided to write it somewhere and somewhere happens to be here.

I CANT STAND WORKING WITH IRRESPONSIBLE PEOPLE WITH NO SENSE OF URGENCY!! WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO WORK WITH THIS KIND OF PEOPLE!

!!$$$@%!$^%@

that felt so much better, eating so much chocolate, hello panda, ice cream, roasted chestnuts, now i got a headache, how nice.

what a BeAutiful wonDerful (BAD) day!
what a beAutiful WonderFUL (AWFUL) day! =) =)

sometimes, i know what i want to blog, and is about to begin typing when i suddenly think that what I'm thinking is stupid, unrealistic, immature and shouldn't be written here, I'm afraid of people laughing at me. I really admire those who can express what they are really thinking.

other times, i feel like blogging, but when i stare into this empty white text box, i miraculously forget what i want to say and close the window. white- a colour so pure that only babies are worthy to be asscociated with, white- a colour that is simple and not fanciful. i like plain colours - white. white - a colour that symbolises death. a colour that is everywhere, the ceiling, the bed, the bedsheets, the walls, the face of the person who has moven on. i don't like white. paradox. life is full of paradoxes.

There are times when I feel like using the time machine and rewind from secondary school days to JC days and keep reapeating the cycle again. There are also times when I want to be become more responsible, think more about the future, become a adult. paradox.

I got reminded by yun jie after reading through his post about our glorious JC days. those were the days was not enough to describe the fun, craziness that we went through. It was something that I think I will never forget at least for the next 3 years. Who would in their life climb school rooftops and ladders to go home when the building is accidentally locked up, play with water in the classroom until half the classroom is flooded with water and got scolded by a teacher. Who would run on a synthetic soccer field barefooted and play captain's ball, use a stack of postcards and throw them like frisbees in the classrooms and play water gun using syringes in the lab every time the teacher turns her head. life was crazy, I was looking forward to everyday.

Now I have to go to work, be even more serious in my studies as it might affect my career next time. Sometimes life can be so hard that the moment you try to talk about it, it makes you feel even more upset thinking about it again, these are the times I would play back all those memories.

We have to keep moving on, I have to keep moving on, just because life is bad sometimes means I have to stop. We have to keep moving on past the bad things that occasionally happens so that we can experience the good things in life. the bad things in life will make you appreciate more of the good things in life. balance. balance is important in life. balance is what I've learn't in the last two years.

yay! i receive the post after so many months of waiting (actually 3 months only!), i passed my Japanese Language Proficiency Test Level 3 (JLPT3) =) although, it was not up to my expectations, but nonetheless well done, i will say, lol.

onward with JLPT2 at end of this year!back to studying my grammar and endless kanji. =(

on my way home from work, i saw a double rainbow today. the last time i saw a rainbow was in jc, i guess. it was very clear, very neat, very pretty, as if someone took some highlighters and painted some arcs on the sky. =)

there were quite some who took out cameras and took photographs; some took and continued walking, others paused on the walk path to gaze upon the beauty of nature.

ahhh, finally the rain after such a long time, rain rain, please stay?

woah, going through an interview with three interviewers at one time takes away half my health points (HP).

yesterday was a great day for me. i woke up at 8 plus, had a very sumptuous cake for breakfast and laid down in front of the computer screen to watch 2 episodes of drama while gurgling down a cup of cold milk.

then after, i got to bed n lied down and got to finish this great book by Neil Gaiman - neverwhere. it's like reading Alice in Wonderland where everything else is darker, it was consistently witty, suspenseful, and hair rasingly imaginative! (sorry, i got to copy from some of the reader's reviews, because it's so nice that i don't know how to describe it)

In the afternoon, i managed to review my Japanese grammar and finished up the homework. As a treat, i read the latest manga that I've bought on friday - soul eater 12.

In the evening, i ate my dinner and went for a game of basketball with my friends. it was fantastic! after such a long time, it is great to play for so long without having to book in tomorrow morning.

it was a fantastic day for me yesterday. But as i was waiting for a bus with chang peng yesterday, i thought of something: something was missing. Such a great day and i was enjoying it, but still something is missing in my life. i don't know what it is, but there is something lacking in my life... like i just purchased a one way ticket in my life, life's changed forever.